Don't tell me the end because i know it already... i hope it end tonight cause i can't take this much longer... i'm just a meat suit so come on and kill me... kill me now...
it's so familiar to me to be the one that stand on the outside, the outside of everything... i can resist anymone but not this one person i really trust she breaks my facade away and see what is there deep down inside but in the moment she doesn't know it and it's pretty much better cause i'm such an bad person it would be awful to make her see... i don't want to lose her i need her... she means everything to me... may i'm not awful as i think but the risk is to high to deal with this..
i'm feeling bad for being everything i am... and i'm really scared of the thought i could lose her... i hope this awful days will go by and i can see her face for the first time with my own eyes..